I’m closing down my wordpress
March 14, 2009
I have moved all my writing efforts to ONE blog, and it is not this one. If you read my blogs and would like to continue to do so, please visit:
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may be leaving wordpress for a younger, sexier blogspot
March 14, 2009
In attempts to narrow my blogging to less spots, I am thinking, again, of closing down my wordpress account.
I have reached a time when there are rarely any views of my posts at wordpress, and it even fewer interactions with those who are reading. I am also copying and reposting each blog at my blogspot and xanga where I am beginning to see more interaction.
Even though it pains me to even consider this, could my relationship with wordpress be nearing an end?
What do you say?
Spoke w/The Incredible Hulk
March 5, 2009
I spoke with the Incredible Hulk yesterday through text message.
“I don’t feel anything anymore. Does that make sense?”
“More than you know!”
“All the stuff I do, or what people react to is not something I even care about anymore.”
The truth is we all do this in one way or another. We numb things so we do not have to feel them. We either fight or fly. Therefore some who get angry because if they are angry or fighting, they don’t have to feel pain. They’ve numbed it.
There are others of us who can block it from our hearts and minds. We can literally pretend it does not exist. Both are equally numb.
I am the latter. My friend: the former. Both numb the pain so we do not have to feel pain. The problem is that both hurt those who are closest to us.
One hurts people with his anger. The other hurts people with his lacking emotional presence. When we numb in either way, we hurt those around us.
“Yeah, and I just keep people at a distance.”
Of course! If they get close, they may hurt you, and if they do, you will try to numb the pain of that hurt by blowing up. Then that hurts them, and you don’t WANT to hurt them. So it makes sense to keep them at a distance so it never comes to that.
Bruce Banner escapes to a remote area in order to keep himself away from people who may hurt him and enflame his anger. It is simply safer that way. He does not wish to hurt anyone, but he knows what is capable of becoming. So he isolates and distances himself from people…from the possibility of love and relationship.
With relationship comes the possibility of hurt.
But the great story behind the badass special effects is watching Bruce Banner learn to love again; watching him learn to control the anger in order to feel other things as opposed to numbing and isolating.
The Day I Short-changed God
March 4, 2009
Slowly, I have been reading through the book “Disciplines for the Inner Life” by Bob and Michael Benson. It has been a great book to work through as it guides me each day into scripture and reflection on how to grow closer and closer to the heart of God. Aside from Ozzie Chambers, this book has been one of few books to really challenge my mind and heart toward intimacy with Jesus and the life that comes of that intimacy.
Each week brings a new topic or characteristic for me to enter into. Last week I fell behind. I admittedly got lazy and failed to come to scripture in order to see what God may have had for me to see and learn. I further admit it may have had more to do with the topic of the week: humility.
My head and my heart seemingly did not want to read about, learn about, much less be challenged to humility.
So, stubbornly, since I had already fallen behind on the week, I just flew through the remainder of last week’s readings so I could just move on to this week’s topic: obedience.
I will just let you rest in the humor of that little jest of God’s on my behalf.
